Greatful

Its funny sometimes how things line up in life to ether work against you or for you.  For example I have had a fairly rough couple of weeks.  What started my "downward spiral" is irrelevant, however at the time this took place for the first week we had constant rain and if it wasnt rainy it was cloudy, so no sun.  As we all know a rainy or cloudy day can make for a "sad" day for anyone but it with what else I had going on it kick started a depression! I stayed strong not allowing myself to vent but so much and pushed through it.  I only had a couple close friends ask if I was ok because only they could tell i was a little off.  With that being said it is also funny to me how things can line up for the good. Over the weekend after being on a mental roller coaster for 2 weeks I had some close friends make sure they got me out of the house to shoot guns, and go out for dinner...etc... Some of my friends where in from out of town so that was a plus, the weather was nice, and it seemed like everywhere I went I was getting complements from all kinds of people about everything from my hair to my shirt or my personality, just anything really.  It all kinda felt staged like one of my friends must have been giving these random people $5 when I wasnt looking and telling them to "go tell that poor bastard something nice" hahaha Whatever was going on I needed it and ended up having a great weekend! So yes after things being so good for so long I had a "slump" however I did not lock myself away for days/weeks nor was it just out of the blue.  Anyone Bipolar or not would have struggled with my internal conflict at the time and recognizing that "my episode" was not far off the "norm" or my feelings where not but so exaggerated to make it much, if any worse than the feelings of a "normal person" and that I am grateful for!!!